Friday, October 21, 2016

Flashback Friday: New Job:)

Oct 1996:
I received a phone call from an old neighbor friend, asking if I was interested in watching twin boys for half a day every day.  I talked it over with the spouse, and we agreed to meet the boys and the mother, and see if it would be a good 'fit'.

K and DB turned out to be the same age as my K, and the three boys seemed to get along, plus their mom had a steady job and the pay would be steady.  We said yes.

We went to the complex Halloween party for the 1st time, with S dressed as the family rabbit, while K was Tigger.  When we arrived home, I was filming the kids and told S to turn her bag around so I could see the logo.  To our surprise, she turned herself completely around, causing us to laugh!

Next Month:  Homecoming!

Present Day:
We've got the kitchen move-in ready, with the exception of a gas stove and gas dryer, plus the living room is move-in ready.  Today we're putting the 2nd coat on the dining room, and painting the hallway.  I also have to paint the cabinet in our bathroom and find new curtains, plus work on the medicine cabinet or replace it.

The girls' room is finished, and I think the boys' room is too.

No karaoke last night, since the bar was replacing the flooring behind the bar.

The reboot of Rocky Horror Picture Show was....interesting.  Of course, it's been over 20 years since I've seen the original, and wanted to fast-forward through some of the songs (I was beginning to fall asleep!).  But over all, they stuck to the basics and didn't change much, thankfully!  LOVED the fact Tim Curry was well enough to play the part of the narrator!!!!

Granddaughter is off to the dentist for a follow-up check up on her oral surgery three weeks ago.  I'm also not too happy with the girls:  They were going through the hiring process at Schott, had even switched to OVERNIGHT shift, but when they took their whiz quiz, results came back 'slightly positive', so both were fired.  They claim they've not smoked weed in over 6 weeks, so I still think they should appeal it as a 'false positive', but no....they've quietly accepted their fate.  I'm so furious I can hardly see straight.  I just have to keep reminding myself it's THEIR problem, not mine.

Saturday Karaoke Line Up:
Losing My Religion-REM
Lost In Emotion-Lisa Lisa and Cult Jam
Remember Me This Way-Jordan Hill
Lost In Love-Air Supply

Temps are dropping once again, and we've had rain two days in a row.  Hopefully for Sunday's Eucharistic Procession, we'll have good weather!

Have a great weekend!

Friday, October 14, 2016

Flashback Friday: Mistakes Keep Coming.....

Oct 1986:
I like to think my downward spiral occurred in January 1987, but in truth, it began this month.  I was practically living with JF every weekends, and this was causing friction between my roommates, who didn't like my new-found 'independence'.  In fact the only thing I did RIGHT was when another girl began bad-mouthing me behind my back, and BJG threatened to beat the stuffing out of her.  I talked her out of it, explaining that when the girl decided to be ADULT about her issues with me and confront ME, then I'D handle it.  And soon she did.  Turned out, she thought my friendship with her BFF's boyfriend was infringing on their relationship, while nothing could have been farther from the truth!  I told her that yes, TH and I had known each other over the summer, but that I was now in a relationship with JF.  THAT took the wind out of her sails, and she apologized for everything she'd said.

Next, while over at JF's, some friends came over and we decided to play Trivial Pursuit, and partner up girls vs boys.  My partner and I were about to win the game with the question in sports..."What sport has hairpin turns?'  I was thrilled; I knew the answer:  Race car driving.  But my partner disagreed with 'horse racing'.  We argued back and forth; finally, I conceded, but stated 'even though she's wrong.'  Sure enough, when the answer was revealed, the three of them all asked me repeatedly why I'd given in.

"To keep the peace and advance the game!"

When Dad's Weekend arrived, he was NOT happy when he met JF.  I fudged things a bit; I said I was having issues with my roommates and that he'd let me crash on his couch a couple of times.  Dad made me promise not to do that anymore; if I needed a night away, to get a motel room.

Chubby Checker performed the show, but I was stressed out and skipped it.  EY was called up on stage to dance!

JF and I had a mutual friend, NL, whom I'd met the year before.  One night, N came over and the men smoked a little weed, which made me sleepy by being in the same room (I didn't know you could get high off of 2nd hand smoke!).  Afterward, I drove N home, but since I could barely keep my eyes open, N invited me to sleep over.  I accepted.....and the unthinkable happened.  Just because neither of us could sleep until afterward.

The final disaster occurred on Halloween.  I was fending off the advances of DW when my phone rang.  It was the AF officer, who had finally come to his senses.

"What happened with Cherie?"

"I shipped that bitch back on a bus to where she came from.  You were right after all; can you ever forgive me?"

I remained firm and told him that if he wanted me back, it was going to take a lot of doing on his part.  We hung up with him agreeing to my terms and me still being skeptical.  I then hung up and did the happy dance.....right back into DW's arms.

Afterward, I felt horrible.  DW, his girlfriend, and I had had a running joke about me being his 'other woman' for several weeks, since Liz didn't dance, so I would 'borrow' him every Tuesday night.  We finished getting dressed to go to the Halloween party, and I prayed JF wouldn't find out about it.

I was slightly pissed about halfway through the night, when a girl dressed as Scarlet O'Hara showed up, and J paid more attention to her than he did me.  I'd tried to get my dad to bring my formal, so I could go as J's favorite character, but he'd forgotten, and Mom had refused to let me rent one for the night.  After the party, we returned to his trailer, then the next day, I think I had planned some things with my roommates.

That evening, however, he picked me up and we sat in his car as he broke up with me.  Turned out he'd done a line in the bathroom with DW, who decided to declare "Damn she's good in bed!"

I was furious, and tried to explain what had happened, but to no avail.  It was over.  Numb, I climbed out of the car and walked slowly to my dorm room and crawled into bed, sobbing.

Next Month:  Good Friends, Good Intentions

Present Day:
We've got the kitchen nearly finished!  I'm still trying to get the floor cleaned, and to find some contact paper for the shelves.  The dining room has paint around the door frames and window; today we're doing the same to the living room.  This weekend, when the granddaughter is at her dad's, then we'll paint the walls.

Good news:  Daughter and Reagan have been hired!!
Bad news:  They're moving to 3rd shift.  There oughta be a law against single moms working overnights, IMHO!!!

Tomorrow's Karaoke:  Bon Jovi Night!

Tuesday, October 11, 2016

"We Are Not Worthy...."

I attended my 1st Imaginarium Convention over the weekend, and was pleasantly surprised:)

1st of all, I could only go on Saturday, and I was very disappointed I missed Cards Against Humanity.

2ndly, I was amazed at the vast array of panels and workshops.  How can one possibly pick and choose?

Finally, I realized I'd based my assumptions on what went on based on my limited experience at conventions, mainly my one-day trips to RT and Weekend With The Authors.

I sat on the 'Writing with Chemistry' and 'Seasoned Romance' panels, and while there were more attendees for the 1st one, we did have a lively discussion at both.  I'd forgotten to watch my time, so I arrived for my WWC panel a half an hour late.  Next year, I shall set alarms on my phone!  I also chatted with another author who was presenting a 'Designing Your Interior' workshop, so I played Devil's Advocate and actually asked him what was wrong with copy/pasting from Word.  I also fetched a copy of three of my own books for his perusal, and to my surprise, he was very patient and informative in that few moments.  I decided to attend his workshop.

And yes, I learned a few things.  I will be pulling ALL my books down next year and redoing the interior.  Thanks Dave!

I WAS surprised to learn that there were only THREE (3) of us who attended.  I've not checked the schedule to see what panel/wkshop was at the same time, so maybe there was a more exciting one scheduled?  Or were more people like me who didn't understand the workshop title?  (I actually thought I was in the wrong room at 1st, until I recognized the man I'd recently spoken to!)

Vendor Hall:
I admit, the first hour and a half (again, not watching the time, oops!) I spent wandering around, taking pictures, chatting, greeting those I knew, and gathering swag, so I have no idea if anyone had passed by my booth and was interested.  But from 2-5:30, I think I spoke to maybe 10 people at the most who made eye contact and took the free copy of my poem, then listened to my 'sales pitch'.  I only sold one book, but still felt as if this time was not entirely wasted.  My tablemate showed up for an hour, so it was good to meet her in person, and I was able to tell potential customers about her genre.

I can appreciate the fact this hotel has to make some $$, but I don't understand why the only free drinks offered was water.  Why not offer coffee and tea?  Or some snacks?  There was a 'concession stand' in the lobby which offered salad ($5); a sandwich ($6); hot dog ($3), chips ($1), and 12-oz water ($1).

Dinner at the awards banquet was AMAZING!  We were offered salad, cole slaw, mashed potatoes, baked apples (I think), green beans, chicken in some sort of sorghum sauce (delicious!), pork chops in a bourbon glaze (delicious!), and catfish.  Not to mention the dessert table:  Triple chocolate cake (YUM!), caramel apple pie, or bourbon butter tort (a friend said this was was gone by the time I got around to dessert, lol!)

Awards Banquet:
I was happy we didn't have to suffer through any 'I'd like to thank the Academy....' speeches, and was thrilled a friend's film won her category, and another friend's book won for Best Romance.  Another friend, Carol P and I picked out our table when we entered, then Marian and her group joined us, as did M and her hubby, plus one of the coordinators and one of his volunteers.

F and his volunteer each won a goofy staff award (I'm sooooo glad the volunteers were recognized!); Marian won the 'Best promo award'; MP won the aforementioned 'Best Romance' award; Marian's group also won 'Best Small Press'.

And there sat C and I empty-handed at a table full of winners.

Don't get me wrong; we had no ill feelings at all; rather, we were thrilled to be sitting with a table full of winners, even if we joked 'We are not worthy....' to be sitting there!  I was happy for MP; I'd actually read her book, and I hadn't expected to win, since I couldn't even vote for myself, having not known I was even attending until Friday!

Some Observations:
-Since this was the 1st year for the awards (outside of the film ones), I felt it was more a popularity contest.  I've only known some of these people for 4 years, while they've known each other longer.  Therefore, the sponsoring press won most of the awards, and MP is also very well known in their circle.  A newbie like me with NO name recognition didn't stand a chance.

-As to the Romance Category....why not break it down into more sub-genres?  I didn't know whether or not to put Kenzie's Heart's Last Chance into Sci-Fi or romance.  I did put one of my own into 'General Fiction', but lost to the other press.  Why not have a Women's Fiction category?  I don't even think there was a Children's category, though several children's books were in the vending hall.

-As for the Vendor Hall.....why not have a three-hour signing block, when nothing else is going on, like at RT or AWWTA?

So look for me next year; I'll be on multiple panels and doing only a 1-hour signing....unless of course, they shift things around.

And I still don't know how the hell I ended up on a comic book panel.

"What's your favorite non-superhero comic book?"

"Deadpool"...."Walking Dead"...."Hellboy"....

My answer?

"Bloom County"

Yeah....I was waaaaaay out of my league here!

Friday, October 7, 2016

Flashback Friday: Family Resemblance!

Oct 1976:
First of all, I want to wish my sister a very happy 46th birthday!!!  Love and miss you!!!

My sister turned six, and celebrated with her friends.  We also made a trip to the Pumpkin Patch in Noblesville (no longer there...*sad face*).  Mom took pictures of us on the hay ride and I realized I look just like my Aunt Linda!  Proof I wasn't adopted, after all....(since I was blonde, and my parents and sister all had dark hair, W kept trying to tell me I was adopted, lol!)

A new couple joined Mom and Dad's small group Bible Study, R and C Hoffer, with their three boys.  P was much older than me, while the twins, S and D were a year younger.  I enjoyed going to their house, since they had a ping-pong table in their basement:)

Next Month:  Thanksgiving!

Present Day:
We closed on the house last Friday!  We are now the proud owners of 203 and 205 Nicholas Dr, and 512 S 2nd:)  The green house on 2nd will be torn down ASAP, while the brown house (203) is being negotiated.  We were able to see inside the brown house for the 1st time on Sat, and I fell in love with the front room, with the huge fireplace.  There is still a lot of stuff to go through in the coming months, though the back two rooms reek heavily of animal feces.  One of those rooms the spouse wants to keep after demolition as a storage room; I say keep the front room and porch, and maybe the kitchen, bathroom, and other room.  I'm also interested in seeing the basement.

Operation Kitchen Rehab:
So far this week, we've repaired the outside wall above the window, scrubbed the grimy floor, washed down the walls, and vacuumed the cabinets.  I've also decided to try to repaint the room the same shade of blue, or at least as close as I can get.  We also need to relocate the door to the back entryway to the other side, so a dishwasher can be purchased at a later date.  The spouse plans to rip off the decaying partial roof above the back door and reconstruct it.

Next year, we plan to extend the kitchen outward 8 feet.

Living Room and Dining Room Plans:
We'll be painting the living room a soft blue "Magical", and the living room a pretty yellow "Turning Oakleaf".  At some point, we'll also have to deep clean the carpets.

Bedroom Plans:
Master:  For now, just a good cleaning of the carpets and walls.
Girls':  They've cleaned the walls and vacuumed the carpet and have already planned where to put the beds and dressers.  S has even hung one of her posters up.  Still have to strip windows, since one is painted/caulked shut.
Boys':  So far it's been thoroughly cleaned, with the exception of the closet (I think).  Also, their window needs the same treatment as the one in the girls' room.

Bathroom Plans:
Master:  It needs a shower head and curtain, and walls cleaned; think I'm going to paint it red.
Kids':  They plan to paint the walls brown and the cabinets Hunter Orange, plus purchase camo shower curtain and accessories.  We also need to move the light from the bathtub/shower and get the lights above the sink functional.

K plans to build himself a room under the girls' room, while my office will go under the kitchen.  No clue where the train set, tools, workbench, pantry, etc will go.

Plans For Tomorrow:
Hopefully, I'll be off to Imaginarium in Louisville in the morning!  As of this writing, I'm still hoping the spouse will release $100 for me to attend ($60 for car, $30 for booth fee, $10 for food....yeah, I know....)

Tonight, I'm setting up on Main St for the 2nd Annual Autumn on Main St festival.  Maybe I'll sell a few books and earn some food $$ for tomorrow???

Have a great weekend!

Saturday, October 1, 2016

October Reading Schedule

Did September seem to drag on forever?  Here's what I ended up doing this month:
-Do well at Wine and Art Fest  Bleh....sold one key chain. Everyone wanted Hotel Stories, which I was sold out of.
-Pay for and attend the Eminence Fall Festival???  Not looking very promising.....
-Do well at Bicentennial Celebration  Sold 11!!!!
-Finish paying forAND do well at KABB  Check; sold only 2, but handed out several copies of the poem!
-Start paying for Imaginarium  Only have to come up with car rental and $30, plus food!
-Progress to Stage #7 on Secret Project #2  Check!  Signed the papers yesterday and the house is ours!!

Books Read:  12
            Print:  7
         E-book:  5

Songs Added To Karaoke Good List:  12
                                                   Thurs:  6
                                                        Fri:  6 How's The Health?
I've lost 6 pounds (though I think I just put them back on again tonight at BW3, lol!); lab results meant my thyroid meds dropped 12 mcg, and have to retest right before Thanksgiving.  I lost my voice when the weather changed, and am hoping it soon returns, singing-wise!

October Reading Schedule:
Son of Neptune-Rick Riordan  Good story, but feel as if some parts 'dragged'.  Some of the back story was a bit tedious.
Mark of Athena-RR  Good story, though see above; and predictible...of COURSE Annabeth would be 'the one' to accomplish the goal!  Very interesting way to see how both Piper and Annabeth overcome their perceived 'inabilities' and ultimately become heroes.
Serpent's Shadow-RR

All That Remains-SM Shade
Betrayal-Aleatha Rom

October Goals:
-Thoroughly clean the new house and get it ready for our 'stuff'
  -Kitchen  Check:)
  -Dining room  
  -Living room  Check:)
     -Kids  Check:)
     -Girls  Check:)
-Begin moving heavy furniture over
-Empty storage unit
-Do well at Imaginarium  Sold 1, but attended a workshop which was GOLD!
-Do well at Author Fair on the 15th  Cancelled
-Pay B
-Pay for OA  Check:)
-Make payments to both editor and cover artist
-Finish Ghost Story
-Finish paying for Christmas Toy and Hobby Show  Check!
-Order inventory for Christmas Show  Check:)
-Make progress on Heart Song
-Complete Phase D of Secret Project #1

Karaoke Songs (Thurs):
Wanted-Hunter Hayes  Slightly rough, but okay:)
For Your Eyes Only-Sheena Easton  Nailed it!
The Warrior-Scandal  Did well!
Watching the Wheels-John Lennon  Bleh....
Forever-Kiss  Nailed it!

Watemelon Crawl-Tracy Byrd
 Forever Young-Rod Stewart
We Are Family-Sister Sledge
Remember Me This Way-Jordan Hill

Living On A Prayer-Bon Jovi  Slightly too high at the end, but otherwise good...
Living In Sin-Bon Jovi  Verses slightly too low, but rocked the chorus:)
You Give Love A Bad Name-Bon Jovi  Rocked the bar:)
Blaze of Glory-Bon Jovi  Probably the best I've ever sung this!
Longer-Dan Fogleburg  Wasn't too awful....
The Long Goodbye-Brooks and Dunn  Not too bad....
Cheater, Cheater-Joey and Rory Think I nailed it??
Look At Me, I'm Sandra Dee-Grease  Did fine until last verse....different words appeared.  NY version??
Lose Yourself-Eminem  Switching this to Thursday, since I know I can get 'help' on it!
Losing My Religion-REM  Ugh.....way too low!
Lost In Emotion-Lisa Lisa and Cult Jam  Wasn't too awful!
Lost In Love-Air Supply  Bleh....too low....
Remember Me This Way-Jordan Hill  1)  Warbled my way through and blew a few lines....

Lotta Love-Nicolette Larson
Love Bites-Def Leppard
Love Can Build A Bridge-Judds
Remember Me This Way-Jordan Hill

Sunday, September 25, 2016

So Ashamed....

From Greg Browning:

"Wednesday, Sept 21st, the Indiana Fever decided to make their voices known about the social injustices occurring in our country these days. The entire team locked arms and didn't stand while the National Anthem played, but instead took a knee. The Fever made national news this morning, not by how they performed during the game, but instead by being the first professional sporting team to protest by not standing during our anthem. I have mixed emotions about this, because as long as I can remember, I've always stood. As a small child, I can recall doing this before our t-ball games. I asked my parents why we stand and put our hand over our heart. They explained it's out of respect and love for our country, and for the men and women who fought to make the U.S free. So I am saddened to see the Indiana Fever not standing last night. It was disrespectful. Also, these ladies are roll models to children...and adults for that matter. I understand that they are exercising their freedom of speech and wanting to draw attention to a serious concern, but to what end? What if every player on both teams had some cause they were passionate about, and refused to stand? Or EVERY PERSON at the game refused to stand because they wanted to protest the 'issue du jour'? Hell, let's just stop playing the National Anthem, because according to these athletes the anthem and our flag isn't something to be respected and proud of, but instead they're selfishly using it as a platform for their own interests. I will give the Fever this much credit...they are at least protesting peacefully, unlike those clowns in the news who are rioting in North Carolina last night. They're only damaging their community further. There's a group that I wish would take a knee."

Ever since that Quarterback-Who-Shall-Not-Be-Named (why give him more SEO??) protested disgraced himself by refusing to stand during the National Anthem, a lot of other sheep athletes have followed his example lead.  All in the name of 'let's protest this issue of white cops killing unarmed blacks'.  

Yes, they have a right to protest.  And they're doing it peacefully, unlike the idiots who riot and cause more dissension in their communities.  Guess what?  Several of these victims were NOT 'unarmed'.

Let me veer away from my topic a moment, and reiterate something I heard:  If we as parents teach our kids to respect officers (black or white...I don't care!) and to not run away/brandish a gun/smart off to them, your kid may not get into worse trouble.  Yes, there are always circumstances in which it might always work in your favor, such as mistaken identity (hey, it DOES happen!), but for the most part, if you're respectful to the cops, they'll be more inclined to treat you decently.  If you act guilty, they're gonna assume you're guilty, or have something to hide.

Back to the subject at hand:  You live in our country.  You play for our country. Therefore, RESPECT  our flag and our National Anthem.  I'm not particularly happy with our present leaders, but for some misguided reason, the majority kept them in office four years ago, and I respect that.  I don't have to agree with everything, and I hope to God we elect the right person to lead us during the next four years.  I do not want to live in fear of being beheaded; lose my constitutional rights; or enter another Depression or even nuclear war.  I'm too young to remember the events of 1979...I hated politics at the time and yes, made fun of the president at the time, and I did believe in our leader at the time in the 90s, and am now not happy about all the lies told, but he was the lesser of two evils at the time, and I liked the gas prices!  But the current nominee....I'm jumping ship.

I watched the 60 minutes segment on Libertarians and realize my values line up better with them, though I doubt they'll ever be a majority party.  I'm Pro-Choice, though I wouldn't personally do it, but I'm not going to begrudge others their choices.  I'd rather it be safe than women resort to back-alley tactics again.  In the meantime, I don't vote one straight ticket; I vote on the issues.  But what about the Primary?  I vote whichever ticket I recognize the most names.  During this year, I voted for BS, just to keep the other person from getting my vote.  The spouse and kids voted the other party, so they cancelled me out.  I don't care; they voted their conscience; I voted mine.

Not every candidate is infallible.  Our founding fathers probably would not have been voted into office, had 24/7 news coverage been available at the time.  They did what they thought was best for our country, not what was best for them.

Oops, I digressed again.  I used to follow the Indiana Fever.  I applauded when a few Purdue grads were chosen for the team, and was happy to see another Women's team.

 But I'm not proud of their decision to protest follow the misguided theory this will bring change.

We all need to remember the Golden Rule:  Do Unto Others and stop believing hyped up idiots who think they're doing the right things when they're only driving the dissension further.

You want our country to fall into ISIS control?  You WANT our country to be like pre-WWII Germany?  Or Communist China?  Socialist Russia?  By all means, you have the right to live wherever you want.  I want to live in a free society. where I don't have to live in fear of the government taking away my rights.

Stand up and be a proud American.  Honor our flag or leave.

Your choice.

Friday, September 23, 2016

FlashbackFriday: Wonderful Opportunity!

Sept 2006:
Take a look to the right.

See the picture captioned 'Sara's Book'?  That's my daughter's 6th grade picture on the title of her story, 'Frisky', a dog who ventures out of his yard and goes on an adventure, meeting up with other stray dogs and eventually finding his way back home.

How did this happen?  She arrived home from school, all smiles, saying every kid in her class was told to write and illustrate a story, and it would then be published.  Parents will be given the chance to order copies only ONCE.

She showed me the story she was working on, and her drawings.  All very cute!  A few weeks later, she brought home the order form, and we ordered 5 or 6 copies:  One for each of the three grandparents; one for her; and one for us.  Not sure if we ordered a 6th for an aunt or not.

The books arrived, and I was touched that my daughter had dedicated her book to me:)  We laughed over the other kids' dedications....some had dedicated to their best friends, or even 'boy/girlfriends'.  But the fact was, there were now TWO published authors in the family!

My oldest son didn't get this opportunity, and no word as of yet if my Tween will get it either.  But this was definitely a Proud Mama moment.

The house hunting continued, with friends at church praying we would find something.

Next Month:  One Last Effort; The Letter; Making The Choice.

Present Day:
Anxiously awaiting the call that lets us know our closing date!  It was supposed to be yesterday, but earlier this week it was delayed, due to the underwriter realizing our homeowners insurance would make our down payment $20 more, then looked at our ($1600) bank account balance and suspended everything.  Our lender was furious, since she hadn't spoken with him 1st.  But since our deposit came in on Wed, the new screenshot was taken yesterday, and we're hoping we get the news today when we'll close and if we can take a few hundred dollars and put food in the house again.  I'm literally down to one chicken meal; pork chops; one flat-iron steak; hot dogs; and a clean-out-the-fridge-night meal.  Last night, I used our final pound of hamburger to make Wacky Mac, and didn't have any salad or garlic bread.  Couldn't even MAKE garlic bread, since I'm out of garlic!  Grrrrr....

Last Sunday at KABB, I sold 2 books,  Very disappointing, but at least it paid for my gas home.  Plus, my voice began going year, there's talk of doing the event during a downtown event, so I'll give this one more year.

On Monday, my voice was gone.  It's now Friday and it's still husky, so didn't go to karaoke last night (though I could've sung Watermelon Crawl, lol!), and don't know if I'll go tomorrow night.  I didn't go last week, since I had to be up at 5:30 am.  But if I do, it will be Bon Jovi Night:)

Fall is now here, but Mother Nature didn't get the message.  We're supposed to be in the 90s until next week.  Tonight is Homecoming, and my Tween is in the parade, plus we have a football game tomorrow morning.  Last week, his team won both days:  18-14 on Sat and 38-0 on Sunday!  Both games the temps were in the low 80s.

Have a great weekend!